Distance, time, perspective. I just get grumpy. I did a bunch of walking yesterday out of necessity and could not walk in the afternoon. I was not sure if I could get to my car. It is so frustrating. The cane seems to have a mind of its own and refuses to stay put. I wander away from it and it does not come when called. You have no idea how many times a day it rattles to the floor. Thwap....
Someone wished me luck and told me to enjoy my mobility. What mobility? I ask. As I have mentioned before.my world is closing in.....
As I look back, I wonder why I didn't do this earlier and then things happen at work and I feel like I cannot do it now. I have clients and projects and things to get done. I have to do..... but then when will the time be right. This will be the best time. I will just cut myself off from the rest of the world and chant healing thoughts.
This is sort of like child birth. When you first realize that you are pregnant you can not imagine every giving birth. By the time you are within a month you are so ready to have the child enter the world and leave your body..... I getting very ready to have this done.
I have a great surgeon, even though Holy Names Soccer eliminated Lakeside in the State Tournament. He is funny and practical. He was very down to earth and much like my father in his approach. I do wonder though about a surgeon that uses power tools and augers and other such things during surgery.
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